#maxxx is done!!

[booooones]

May you do Maxxx headcanons?

maxxx.... unauthorized fucking thing /affectionate

• can walk on all 4s... Why? idk. I can just imagine someone throwing a bag of crack (it's actually flour) and he just walks over there and brings it back in his mouth like a dog

• He/any pronouns + gender fluid (cause he's (possibly) a quantum distortion phenomenon [a agglomeration of multiple personalities, according to pitbook])

• Cat person

• Like to visit Death, Inc. green spaces/gardens (I forgot if they're called that exactly) and tries to search for opium poppies to eat

• Has definitely bitten someone atleast once

• being on a shit ton of drugs, his heart (if it even works) randomly stops sometimes and he'll just drop dead foe a few seconds before getting back up again

• never calls anyone by their proper names cause he's a little shit (Waldo -> Waldorf), except for people he likes

• I can see him referring to himself as "the Maxxx" like "the maxxx is sad 8(" instead of "I am sad"

[starblitzy-started-a-fire]

Can you do:

Maxxx with J10

Waldo with I8

Candice with J3

Catherine Imamura with E8

Maxxx again with G7

Thanks for all the work you do! =]

Slight blood warning ⚠️

Finally done! Sorry for the long wait 😅 It was really fun to draw all of these X]

[microscotch]

“Maxxx truly has broken me. Everyone else in this house has broken me. I just can’t deal with it anymore, I just don’t know how I’m supposed to look at these guys after the treatment I have received.”

-”I... I don’t have it in me anymore!! Everyone here is a horrific backstabber... please just get me out of here!”

“I haven’t seen Angie all morning and...frankly I don’t give a shit after what I got to hear yesterday.”

-”Yes Isabella, thank you so much, that surely worked well! Screw both you and Namzib!”

“I was just searching for my charger and found a note on her table.”

-“ALRIGHT WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED, WHERE IS ANGIE??”

-“Woah, chill!”

-“I’m not chilling, we’re missing one whole cast member! That trainwreck gave us amazing quotes!”

-“You really are not at all like the official description your creator provided.”

-“Oh yeah, does that mean you’ll distribute Angie’s salary evenly across all cast members?<3”

-“You’re still not getting paid!”

-”Is nobody gonna address that we used to have two large ass windows over here?”

-”Is nobody gonna address that this show is called “Belladonna Shore” and we’ve never been to a beach?”

-”Thanks, Namzib. Clearly you’re the only member with a couple brain cells left.”

“So after Toni was done wildin’ about Angie leaving the house thanks to Namzib’s breakthrough, she immediately sent us to the beach. Literally. We didn’t even have a second to change.”

Shawty had them Apple Bottom jeans (Jeans), boots with the fur (With the fur) The whole club was lookin' at her She hit the flo' (She hit the flo'), next thing you know Shawty got low-low-low-low-low-low-low-low 🎶

“Look, I may be the hottest guy in all of Belladonna Cove, but I have NEEDS, too. And I feel like my girlfriend still has to like...get that.”

-“What’s up with you?”

-“Bro, it’s been three hours that my girl hasn’t been complimenting me or made any remarks about my huge follower count. Feelin’ like punching Roz while looking irresistible in my pajamas, where is he?”

-”I think he’s trying to find himself by sunbathing inside that rock over there.”

“I’m sick of these freaks just making out with each other.”

“I mean, I did kiss Maxxx but I just wanted to piss off Isabella. And after the whole tape courtesy problem kinda killed the mood last time I was about to get with a guy, I gotta find someone else.”

-“Alright, time to find a meatbag to earn screen time with...”

-“No. Looks like he’s spending his free time rewatching Stargate. Would be an awkward af experience.”

-“No. Spirit too broken.”

-”There we go. Long red hair, broad shoulders, no self awareness: Clearly the markers of an alpha meatbag.”

-“Your jaw is just as hot and your hair is just as flaming red as my fueling hatred for my housemate!.”

-“Wow, that’s one scary...compliment.”

-”And there’s plenty more where that came from.”

-”Hey, I’m trying to flirt here, inferior ginger. Walk over to the world’s most pathetic couple and perform your worry idle there.”

-“Ah, what a great day to hit the beach with the hottest girlfriend on the entire planet!”

-”Right? Aren’t the waves just beautiful!🌊 ”

-”....>>>:(”

“I’ve got a confession to make.”

“Nothing turns me on more than chicks in tracksuits. Like, to me it’s just the hottest way a girl can dress.”

-”Hey beautiful, are you wearing Adidas?💓”

-“Ah, we’re having an awesome time at the beach!”

-“DON’T WE, APRIL?”

-”OWW, F***ING PSYCHO!! Uh, I mean - ouch, that was a little heavy-handed!💚”

-“We totally do, babe! Nothing better than watching the waves do the same thing for five hours straight!”

“I’ve been observing sims for long enough to know how to seduce a guy, and Komei is no exception to that - he was melting.”

“Even though what’s-his-name was kinda killing the mood with his weird duck moves.”

“But it’s simple, you know. Just showing off my breakdancing skills.”

“Excessive tickling. I know what guys are into. Yeah, I’m guaranteed to be the shining star of this episode-”

-“ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW.”

-“Oh, I’m just a pajama guy, in love with a tracksuit girl!⚽🌙”

-“COOL. NOW MOVE YOUR CAMERA BACK OVER HERE.”

-“My love, not even the sunset or the waves can match your beauty!”

-”Oh Maxxx, your sunlit muscles are glowing so bright!”

-“I think I’m gonna vomit.”

-“I just returned from the bottom of these rocks. I am a different man now.”

-”Hey, cameras! We’re pillowfighting on the beach! Don’t you at all wanna know how we randomly got these pillows?”

-”Who the fuck are you talking to?”

-”Uh. No one.”

-”Thank you, finally.”

-”FUCK BEING A DIFFERENT MAN NOW, I’M NOT DONE WITH YOU!”

-“ALRIGHT, THAT’S IT. KOMEI, MOVE!”

-“Why do I have to watch this shit?”

-”I WILL NEVER GIVE YOU UP, APRIL!”

-”Komei, I’m literally massaging you, small price to pay. Stop complaining.”

-“BREAK HIS NOSE, MAXXX! AVENGE ME FOR WHAT HE DID YESTERDAY!”

-”TURN HIS FACE INTO PUDDING!!!!!”

-“Oh, Namzib!💘”

“What a hoard of freaks...”

-“Seems like my cab’s here. What do you say? You wanna come along? 💗”

-“Um. Ew. No.”

“...What?”

-”I...I WILL.....UAHAHAHASHSAHSAUSHUAAAAHAUAA”

-”OH YOU’VE GOT TO BE KIDDING MEEEE!”

-”Isabella, I know I’m just a simple guy you keep rejecting, but I just HAVE to do this right now, in the midst of Namzib’s mental breakdown!”

-”Lyam what are you-”

[cumulo-stratus]

MAXXX have you done today (Friday’s) strands? it made me think of you

i can't do it yet 😭😭 it's 9 pm on thursday for me 😭sowy but i'll be up past midnight tho so i'll do it soon!!

[natiebugs]

Maxxx done some things that ComputO hates

The meme

[codecicle]

HELLO YOUR STORY ON THE SORRY BOYS IN THE APOCALYPSE???? as someone who is so VIOLENTLY hyperfixated on any zombie media, and then slimecicle as well, seeing someone so correctly portray what I thought of the character(s) made me go even more fucking insane /pos.

I do think sb!slimecicle (sorryboy! = sb!) knew he wouldn't, or just couldn't live with himself after 'what he did' to Wilbur. Even if sb!wilbur's fate was already decided the moment he was bitten. Slimecicle knew he couldn't live on so he let himself die, it was a suicide because he couldn't live on with what had happened to one of his friends. I think it was the fact it was with his bare hands that he snapped wilbur's neck! And yet even in the end he died once more thinking his friend(s) successfully escaped, only for them to die horribly. (like generation loss!slime and generation loss!ranboo all over again guys ❤️)

AHGJAJFJSJKSK HI MAXXX ^_^

I'm so glad you liked my little angst post I didn't think it would escape containment the way it did LMAO but also!! YOU YOU YOUUUU UNDERSTAND EXACTLY‼️sb!charlie couldn't live with himself after what he had done him staying behind at the gate ABSOLUTELY doubles as both a self-sacrifice to keep everybody alive and a suicide from the grief of killing wilbur. AND HIM DOING IT WITH NOTHING BUT HIS BARE HANDS ABSOLUTELY CONTRIBUTED DUDE I DIDNT EVEN THINK OF THAT :0 he spent the whole video killing with quick and efficient weapons but now he actually had to use his hands to kill the man he was closest too like OUGGUHHH 😭😭 THAT SHIT HURTSS

the generation loss parallels can and will kill me btw. charlie died both times being devoured while his arm was outstretched and the camera followed it. he died while sacrificing himself to let the people he cares about most escape and put an end to the torment both times. killing murdering maiming rn im so so SOOOOO fucking normal about that actually its fine everryyythings fineee we are fine im NORMAL

[ruinikaido]

WHAT THE HELL!!!! YOURE AWAKE NO SHHHHHH SHHHH DONT LOG ONLINE NO GO AWAY IM NOT DONE W/ YOUR GIFT YET!!!! no but really happy birthday happy maxie legal adult day :"3!! aw man i totally wont give you an evening (in your timezone) birthday gift now nope ^u^ MWAH I LOVE YOU MAXXX HAVE A GOOD BIRTHDAY <3

TOO LATE IM ONLINE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH OMG YOURE SO SWEET ILL KILL UOU THANK U

[bitchfacebriarwood]

finally starting campaign 3 for the first time and man is it fun watching everything with the knowledge that fcg is Fucked Up

[cloudsrust]

Omg, you drew Maxxx so well! I love that bizarre funky dude, he's my top favourite Sorrow & going through his departure was like going through a fever dream trip, also love his theme song too!

(Just saw two Maxxx asks that I had forgotten to reply to-) Thank you-! He is quite fun to draw exactly because of how funky he is, don't have to worry about natural poses lol.

And truee! The deformed bodies and twitchy.. uhh.. celebral wiring? are also quite the interesting choice for the zone- but they give off that trippy and unsettling vibe that really ties everything together! His music is also perfect (and a bop, same with Candice's of course), it kinda feels like a twisted and chaotic carnival theme with its high and lows and I'm absolutely there for it!

Honestly he could-! Well with everything that goes on in the LC/LoR universe I wouldn't be surprised if there were more drugs or addiction related abnormalities .

(Me rambling about what type of abnormality they'd be under the cut since it's a bit long)

He'd be mhh- either T-06-XX or T-01-XX (T= trauma, fear or emotion related, 06=amalgamation/abstraction, 01=humanoid, XX=should be their number but I don't have imagination for those lmao). Since he is the second-to-last boss I'd say they'd totally be a WAW risk wise- and either white (affects sanity) or black (affects both sanity and health) damage would work for them.

Prefered works mhh- maybe Attachment(which could be a trap- making the Agent "addicted" if done more than once) >Instict >Insight >Repression.

Mechanic wise I can see them being the type of abnormality that infects Agents and Employees (the "addicted" thing), like Melting Love or Queen Bee. But- he could also work as a weaker White Night, occupying a room when breached and blasting the facility/department with white/black damage every-so-often, while the "addicteds" spread even more panic running around.

Oh! His syringe might work quite well as a Gift! Maybe diminishing Fortitude and Prudence while upping Temperance and Justice (Drug overdose impacting health and sanity.. while "upgrading" work efficiency and speed.

..Me overthinking the mechanics and naming aside lol- oww I can just see them hovering in their little containment with that creepy smile </3. He'd be one of those abnormalities that I'd get in every run just 'cause they're cool to look at- like Butterflies' Funeral, Freischütz and Void Dream.

[aalissy]

Life Swap

Ahh, a life swap! Another one of my favorite tropes to read for miraculous ladybug <3. Especially when I get to see Adrien and Tikki together, hehe. I think they'd be such a cute pair <3 <3. And Marinette and Plagg is just power to the maxxx haha. Those two are chaoticcc together lololol. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter. Lemme know what you think :)

AO3

Adrien blinked awake to the sweet-smelling, warm comfort of the bakery. Turning off the blaring alarm on his phone, he checked the time. It was still early. He had plenty of time to get some designing done. He stretched lightly, his arms reaching up above his head before he gave Tikki a light pat on the cheek, “Come on little bug. It’s time for our day to start.”

His kwami yawned, her big bug eyes drooping at him as she gave him a tired smile, “Good morning, Adrien. You’re up early.”

“Good morning, Tikki. I just wanted to get some time in for sketching,” he beamed at her before sliding down his bedside ladder. Walking over to his sewing machine, he gave a quiet sigh as he sank into his desk chair. Adrien fidgeted with his sketchbook for a second, opening it up to some of the designs that he had done recently. His pencil tapped against the notebook as he debated continuing the scarf he had originally planned for Lady Noire or a new project altogether. Glancing at the time again, he instead decided to continue on the scarf, not sure if he had enough time to start a new project. The minutes ticked by, but eventually he finished and showed the fabric off proudly to Tikki, “Does this look good, little bug?”

His kwami flitted around the scarf happily, a bright grin on her face, “It looks amazing, Adrien. Is this what you woke up so early for?”

“Yep,” he glanced down shyly at the scarf, “I kinda wanted to give it to Lady Noire. Do you think she’ll like it?”

“I bet she’ll love it,” Tikki nuzzled into her holder’s cheek, giving him a tight squeeze with her little arms.

Adrien chuckled, holding her to him before he checked the time again. With a quiet sigh, he saw that he had to get ready soon. Grabbing his clothes from the closet, he rushed off down to the bathroom where he brushed his teeth and hair before putting on his usual school clothes. Running his hands through his hair one more time, he ran upstairs, holding his shirt pocket open for his small kwami. She disappeared inside with one last bright smile aimed at him. Finally finished with his daily routine, he let out a sigh of relief before heading downstairs, kissing his parents on their cheeks as he greeted them, “Hello Maman, hello Papa!”

“Good morning, Adrien,” Emilie pecked his own cheeks back, running her fingers through his hair as they sat down at their table for breakfast, “We made you some toast this morning. Along with your favorite... croissants,” she waved the delicious pastry in front of him before placing it delicately on his plate.

“Thank you, Maman,” he beamed at her before digging into the food before him, savoring the tasty treats. 

After Adrien had finished and it was time to leave, he bid his parents goodbye, waving cheerfully at them before heading down into the bakery. Warming up a few croissants for his friends, he piled them into a bag before making his way to school. When he arrived, he nodded happily at Mlle. Bustier before sliding into the seat next to Nino, giving his friend a wide smile, “Hey bro, how was your weekend?”

“It was good,” the DJ grinned back at him, adjusting the cap on his head, “Got to spend it with Alya, which was great. How was yours?”

“Good, stayed up a little too late designing but that’s like most days,” he chuckled, nudging his friend lightly before pulling out a bag with the still warm treats, “I brought you guys some croissants, by the way. I hope you like them.” Adrien passed two of the warm treats to both Alya and Nino, closing the bag up with the last one still inside for whenever his usually late friend made it to class. 

Mlle. Bustier clapped her hands once before speaking, “Alright class, it’s time for our lesson to begin.”

With that, Marinette stumbled her way into the classroom, her arms wheeling about her as she almost crashed into the desk in front of her, “Am I late? Oh, I’m late. I’m so so sorry. I-I was at a photoshoot and we got out late. My assistant wrote a note, though,” her cheeks had darkened considerably as she handed the slip of paper over to their teacher.

“It’s alright, Marinette. I understand. Now please, take your seat,” she gestured with her head over to the seat that was behind him.

With one last sheepish smile, she took her seat. When Mlle. Bustier began their lesson, and had her back fully turned to the board, Adrien turned around in his seat, giving Marinette a bright grin, “Hey!” he whispered, “I brought you a croissant. I only hope it’s still warm.”

“I-I croissant made you for me!” her cheeks turned a dark shade of red before she shook her head quickly, “I mean you made a croissant for me?! Adrien that’s so sweet, you didn’t have to do that.”

“No, it’s fine. I wanted to!” with one last smile at the girl behind him, he fished the croissant out of his bag, handing it to her, “I hope you like it.”

“I love everything you make for me,” she sighed, before giving her head another quick shake, “I-I mean I’m sure I’ll love it!”

Marinette took it carefully from his hand, biting into the delicious pastry with a happy grin spreading across her face. He heard Alya snort and nudge her before he turned back to the front of the classroom, where luckily, Mlle. Bustier hadn’t noticed his attention had strayed.

His own friend bumped their shoulders together as his eyebrows wiggled up and down, “A model, huh? You set your sights high.”

“Nino, please,” he laughed, punching the DJ lightly on his arm, “Marinette and I aren’t like that. We’re just friends.”

Besides, there’s someone else that I like, Adrien trailed off in his mind as he thought of long, dark hair in a braid, bright, emerald green eyes that could see into his soul, and two pointy cat ears. 

I’ll see you soon, mon amour.

[sakiye]

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[samantha-tumbler]

Cought Offguard | Billy ST part two

M/C: (my comments) There is going to be a part three I just got tired of writing right now. This is my first fanfic so be nice. I hope you enjoy! PS the reader is suppose to be the same age as Max. And I don't think its weird that a 16 year old and a 17 yearly are flirting even tho they’re sophomores and seniors. 

Summary: You meet your new bestie Max and your fun leads to an unexpected encounter with her brother Billy. 

Warnings: Underage drinking. Little smut 

Max and you had been friends hand in hand for the majority of the year. Sleepovers almost every weekend and you still barely knew about Billy. You would glance at him in the hallway and he would look at you and smile but you knew it didn't mean anything. He practically smiles at every girl in Hawkins.

You got to your locker and started daydreaming about Billy. Its not that you liked him or anything he just makes you feel a certain way and... “BOO!” Max had come up behind you and almost scared the shit out of you. “Don't do that” you said “Aw is y/n upset?” Max replied. “What were you thinking about anyway? I can see that look in your eye.” “Nothing, just forget about it.” you snapped back. She shrugged it off and you both headed to Home Ec. 

After class she invited you over for a sleepover and said that no one would be home. You happily agreed and you both started making a plan of all the bad stuff you two were gonna do. “First we obviously have to have boys over” Max said “Too bad we don't know any.” you said back “True, well were gonna have to think of something fun to do.” said Max “Trust me Im sure we can have fun with a little of thisss.” You smiled and opened your backpack revealing a bottle of alcohol. “Oh my god, where did you get that?!” “Steve and I are close and he just gave it to me as a present for Christmas”. 

School had ended and you were both heading to Billy’s car for a ride. He didn't like waiting so Max and you had to run out of school like crazy people. When you got in eyeshot of Billy you could see him talking to a girl “like always” Max had said under her breath. We waited till they were done talking and walked over to his car. “Your late” he said. “Its not my fault you want to get in every girls pants.” Max said. You raised an eyebrow in shock because she never snaps back at Billy.

He told you to wait in the car while he talked to Max. You obeyed because quite frankly you were a little scared of Billy. Max stoped you and told Billy “Whatever you have to say to me you can say in front of y/n.” Billy stoped and looked at you, and then back at Max. He angrily said “Get in the car.” to the both of you. Max was confused because Billy never gives up an argument.

The ride to Maxes was awkward and quite. Billy was just blank like something had come over him. When you pulled into the driveway you both quickly got out while Billy raced off god knows where. “Where are your parents anyway?” you asked Max. “I don't really know, Mom said she had a business trip and my stepdad just wanted to go with her I guess.” “Well as long as we're alone let's get this party started.” You said while pulling out the alcohol. Twenty minutes into the bottle you both started feeling light headed and dizzy. Max turned on some music and you had the best dance party ever. 

Not even 20 minuets later you hear Billys mustang pull up in the driveway and you have a small panic attack. You could barely walk and your body decided to collapse on the floor. Max was in the bathroom unaware what was about to happen. Billy unlocked the front door and quickly sees the open bottle of alcohol on the table. He yells “Max!” she didn't respond “MAX!” he said again. She answered this time “Yes Billy” she says remorsefully hoping that he hasn't noticed the bottle. 

“What the hell is going on here?” You have never heard Billy sound like this before. He had a deep voice and you could tell he was going to snap any second. “Maxxx” you groaned on the floor. Billy hadn't noticed you yet. He bent down and said “oh, hi y/n” in a sarcastic voice implying that you weren't the center of attention at the moment. Max started telling Billy that you guys were just trying to have fun and he about lost it. He took the bottle and drained it down the sink. “You are sixteen you don't need to be having this kind of fun!” “I hate you, you never let me do anything.” All this time they were fighting you felt like you were paralyzed on the floor. 

“How much did she drink?” Billy asked Max “I don't know like almost a 1/4 of the bottle.” Max replied. Billy shook his head in dis belief “oh god” he said. “What is she gonna be ok?”asked Max “She’ll be fine, just let me take care of it.” Max went into the bathroom to take a shower, while Billy walked over to you. “You ok?” he said turning you on your back. You could hardly make out a sentence. “Fine” you said. “Alright let's get you to bed” He picked you up and took you to his room. “You’ll be more comfortable in here.” Max only had a single bed so he was right. “ you sleep with me?” you asked. He smiled and said “I’ll be on the couch, call if you need anything.” Billy covered you with his blanket and gave you a bucket just in case. It was still pretty early and Billy is usually out at this time but he stayed in to make sure you and Max were ok.

You had fallen asleep for a couple hours but woke up at 1 AM really confused to find yourself in BILLY HARGROVES bed. You got out of bed and walked out into the living room to find Billy awake watching TV. “Well good morning y/n.” Billy said. “Why does my head hurt so much?” you said. “That would be called a hangover.” Billy responded “Ughhh, what even happened?” Billy spared you the details but explained why you were in his bed. Wow Billy actually caring about someone other than himself shocking. “Well thanks for taking care of me.” you said. “What are you watching?” you asked “Nothing that interesting, wanna join me?” sure why not. You sat next to Billy on the now very small couch. Your thighs had to touch in order to position yourself in front of the TV. 

It was actually kinda nice being with Billy when he wasn't so agro. Billy got up to get some water and he brought you a glass too. “It will help with the headache.” he said. “Thanks.” When Billy sat back down it seemed he was even closer to you than before. A scary movie had come on TV and your eyes were both glued. You loved scary movies and it seemed Billy enjoyed them too. Billy jumped and he had grabbed your hand. Not even noticing you hid your face in his shirt. The movie was so distracting you both didn't realize you were closer then normal. A commercial came on and Billy had noticed you two holding hands. You made eye contact he had a smirk on his face and was looking back in forth from your eyes to your hands. 

Part three on its way 

[mrmaxxxpleasure]

I was carrying around a lot of internalized biphobia in a lot of ways. For a long time, I felt like I had to carry around my resume — you know? I’ve been on so many dates with other women who felt like they had to bring up another [female] ex... [it's that] instinct to prove, 'no, I actually am queer.' Which is such a weird thing, because I wouldn’t go on a date with a dude, for example, and say 'let me talk about my other man ex to prove to you that I’ve done this before.'

Maxxx Pleasure for the Bisexual Resource Center

[tikusbirumuda-blog]

Kita berbeda

Sudah lama pen bikin tulisan about this tpi ragu. Dan skarang akhirnya saya membulatkan tekad untuk menulisnya. Fyi bukan penulis yg handal jadi so sorry kalau bahasanya berantakan ehhee saya akan memperkenalkannya, sebut saja namanya ‘Abe’. 

 Dya temennya temennya temenku, prtama ketemudesember 2015 disalah satu tmpat wisata. Selang bberapa bulan stalah pertemuan it dya DM aku di IG, singkat cerita chit chat kita brlanjut di BBM & LINE. Beberapa kali hedon bareng, aku sm temenku, dya sm temennya alias ga hedon berdua.

Sampai ada moment dmn kta meluangkan waktu u/ jalan berdua. Siapa sangka kita pnya sifat yg nyaris mirip (dgn kata lain ‘nyambung’). Im a girl, he is a boy. Ga salah kan klau saling suka or  pnya perasaan lbih? Im the type of girl yg gampang suka tp ga gampang put love whitin it. (huhu gampangan) Sering chat, beberapa kali jalan bareng, saling sharing, ngebuat kita makin deket, makin nyambung, makin ‘nyaman’. Is it great? Pengennya jawab IYA tapi jawaban sebenarnya adlah TIDAK. Why? Because we are different. Udah bisa ditebak apa isi thread ini.

Bahagaimana bisa Hamba Allah mencintai Anak Tuhan? Ataupun sebalinya. It’s a feeling, gaada tombol settingannya. Oke lanjutt, kebersamaan kita di kota itu ga berlangsung lama. Karna aku harus pindah kota untuk urusan lain, dya juga menghentikan studynya dikota itu dan harus balik ke tempat asalnya untuk urusan lain juga. Pisah? Lost Contact? I think it will be. Tapi ternyata kita masih sering chat, telfon, VC, masih sering berbagi cerita dan ‘rindu’.

Sampai akhirnya aku pindah lagi ke tempat yg lebih jauh lagi . dan aku mulai berfikir ini akan benar2 berakhir. Ternyata belum. Kepeduliannya yg super masih menguatkan hubungan ini. Sampai suatu ketika dya bener2 ngilang gaada kabar selama nyaris 1 tahun. Nomer telfon? Ga aktif. IG? Ga pernah ON. LINE? OFF. BBM? apalagii. Dan aku mulai mikir, “oke we are done”. Tapi siapa sangka suatu ketika dya mulai ngeDM aku di IG dan minta nomerku. Dengan bodohnya aku kasih nomerku kedya -_- stupidity! Disitu dya cerita kemana dan ngapain aja dya selama ini walaupun  aku ga pernah Tanya tentang hal itu(I think kita bukan siapa2 jadi aku ga berhak tau. tapi memang dya laki2 super yg ga pengen aku mikir negative tntg dya). Hilangnya dya selama ini adalah untuk menggapai cita2nya yg sempat gagal ketika pertama kali kita  pisah.

Ya, udah 2 kali dya ikut tes ini, dulu aku dengar tntg kegagalannya, sekarang aku dengar tentang keberhasilannya. How lucky I am? Terharu plus seneng dengernya. Ucapan selamat dan doa aku ucapin ke dya. Pembicaraan yang sangat melegakan. Terus gimana tentang perasaan kita? “TAK ADA YANG DAPAT MENGUBAH WARNA LANGIT”. Back to part of sadness huhuuu. Mulai saat itu sampai sekrang hubungan kita baik, lebih baik, semakin baik, dan sangat baik. Pembicaraan kita tak pernah luput dari kata ‘RINDU’.

Rindu yg tak terbalas atau rindu yg tak sampai? Lebih tepatnya Rindu yang tak seharusnya terjadi. Kita sampai dititik dimana aku merasa ga bias terus2an sm dya, tanpa sepengetahuan dya aku punya cowok disini. Is it work untuk berpisah dengan dya? Ngga! Hubunganku berakhir dan brengseknya aku masih berhubungan baik sama Abe. Aku main ‘curang’. Inti dari hubungan ini “kita masih tetap dengan perasaan yg sama”. Ga kerasa udah hampir 4th kita kyak gini, bener2 bukan waktu yg singkat.

But in the end (sekarang) aku bener2 mutusin buat pisah sama dya. Ini bener2 berakhir. Masalahnya apa? Bukan dari dya, tapi dari dalam diriku. Aku gamau dan ga pengen kek gini terus. Hubungan yg bisa dibilang ga jelas masa depannya (negthink ya aku huhu) but yaa mau gimana lagi, emang ga seharusnya kita bertahan selama ini. “We r really done” tapi aku harap masih bisa jadi temen baik dya (kalimat universal dalam suatu perpisahan). 

Dya bener2 kecewa sm aku, tapi dya ga marah, gaada hak buat marah katanya :’) . dya hancur, bener2 hancur. Status galau, ga plang kerumah semalaman, sampai jatuh sakit. Aku? Seneng? Ntahlah, Cant be describe.

 One day I wish dya baca tlisan ini, ntah dya baca langsung atau ada orang bacain tulisan ini buat dya. If u r the one please tell him tht I really lucky ever have and haved him! 

 Alasan aku nulis ini prtama gabut (whahah), kedua I want to tell him about our story (yg sbenernya lebih panjang dr ini) but I cant karna takutnya dibilang mengenang & berakhir mellow, ketiga I have another priority sekarang. Doa ku buat Abe wish u get someone love u and ur God.

Byee maxxx beruang!

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LISTEN... HEAR🙄😳😡🙄🙄😟😓😨😱😭😢🥹The LORD our God is one LORD: %0Ahttps://kjbo.org/Deuteronomy-6-4/ https://demosthenes100964.blogspot.com/2022/07/listen-hearthe-lord-our-god-is-one-lord.html i am weird. in 2020 i thought GOD was using covid to draw us closer to HIM, to create a revival.       unfortunately things are worse than before 2020 my blind brother MAXXX said he will think maybe about JESUS after MAXXX is done taking care of his eyes 🙄😳😡🙄🙄😟😓😨😱😭😢🥹 NOW THIS IS REAL BLINDNESS this is what i am "hanging my hat on"                            John 12:32 And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all [men] unto me. https://kjbo.org/John-12-32/                                         🙏🤸😃🥰😀🤣🫰✌️🙏👌🕺💃🤸‍♂️🤸🤸‍♀️🏆🎤🥁🎺🎷     Jeremiah 31:34 And they shall teach no more every man his neighbour,            Alex Crofoot Alex Crofoot                and every man his brother   Marcelus Maxx Demosthenes                                         saying, Know the LORD: for they shall all know me, from the least of them unto the greatest of them, saith the LORD: for I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.https://kjbo.org/Jeremiah-31-34/           שמע, ישראל: ה' אלוהינו אחדBLESSED BE THE LORD GOD OF ISRAEL LISTEN... HEAR🙄😳😡🙄🙄😟😓😨😱😭😢🥹The LORD our God is one LORD: https://kjbo.org/Deuteronomy-6-4/  

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Stressed A'F

I am stressed! To the MAXXX! I am so irritated with so much that is going on in my life right now. The added stress from my in-law's is so unnecessary. Eid is coming up and they are being selfish and arrogant. I am do done with these small minded people. They are not helpful at all, but just pretend that they are helpful, but are not. Like, my cousins were like, do not worry we will help you with your classes. LMAO, as if they did help. All they cared about is knowing information that is all, they just wanted the details. I hate these relatives so much because when it comes to me. Everything is being judged, but when it comes to them it is okay.

Classes are stressing me out because of how I did not know the amount of classes I needed to take. Now, I probably will not get a loan for my classes next year since I did not complete my classes. I am so upset.